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2011-07-05T11:05:00.001-07:00

ahhahaha wtf long time no update!!~ so here u go.

2011-05-08T04:27:00.000-07:00

tumble into my tumblr at www.rebelliousallegiance.tumblr.com

yeah. im part of the "cool" people now.

little help please

2011-04-29T10:52:00.000-07:00

hello people. at this point of time, i am already acclimatised to poly life and have a vague sense of direction around the school, to say the least. aaaaanyway, i've been feeling listless.

i think its because of the whole "what am i supposed to do in life" internal conflict again. but really, what am i supposed to do in life? i give myself another...60 more years. then im dead.

and the thing that's really bugging me is that probably nothing is going to change even after that.

everyone that i know is going to carry on with their lives, probably living off their remaining cpf and watching their grandchildren all grown up. my life is just going to be another walk in the beach, and any remaining traces or footprints of it, washed away by the shore waves. and maybe occasionally i'll get to watch some beautiful sunset pass me by.

im not being "emo" just so you know, which you probably dont. it's just really whats on my mind. it's easier for you to understand if you just think to youself, if anything changes after you're gone. is MacDonald franchise going to close? is koi going to fold? is school going to stop? doubt it.

is someone going to stand on some global podium and tell the world the life you led? tell the world how you met your best friend?
how you and your friends stole from a convenience store?
how you mugged halfheartedly with your friends for o levels?
how you felt when you received your o'level cert?
or how you met the love of your life?

nope, all that disappears with you. there's no permanent legacy, no huge memorial and no change. global warming doesn't stop, neither does the earth's rotation. and probably, your great grandchildren wont know who you are.

i think, i just want to be remembered. i dont want to disappear like everything and everyone else biodegradable. i want to make a change, but i know that's not going to happen.

yeah you might probably read this and scoff at my unconventional train of thoughts, but think about it, u have any idea who your great great grandfather is? does he matter to you? honestly no. you dont know the guy. whatever. that's how your great great grandchildren is going to think.

yea sometimes i wish i didnt have to think so pessimistically and have such a morbid way of thinking but i cant help it. well, dont judge me for it asshole.

well obviously i dont walk around school looking like i want to cry,

but sometimes it's not what i dont feel, it's what i dont show.

geez, nighty night people.

throw out a float and i'll scramble desperately for it,
cus my life jacket aint working anymore

2011-04-27T09:19:00.000-07:00

okay,
first of all, im stuck in an all girls group and that really sucks for me cus its awkward all the time and they are pretty much not pretty.

second of all, one of them called Joanne is especially not pretty because she bosses me around like shes the shit.

third of all, her banana face is so concave u can play hot wheels cars on it all day long..

im telling you, the only good thing about my class is the guys,they are all really nice, there's this guy in particular, his name is clement. he might pass off as a regular "too friendly" kinda guy that just wants ta make tons of friends, but there's something so genuinely nice about him that you just know its not an act.

then there's this other guy, cleon. funny as hell, and we get along really well, like peanut butter and jam, bread and butter, and like my fist against Joannes face. that's how well we get along, but i guess i deserve this much, for having such fucked up primary school mates(i'd use "friends" but that term is incorrect) that practically took away the childhood that every adolescent should have. im kinda glad for it though, made me grow up faster.

oh but here's the thing, we wanna grow up so fast,that what we don't realise is that when we grow up, we'd give the world to turn back time. it's true. its already happening for me. Dammit peter pan where the hell are you?

anyhoo..um, my class is relatively easy to get along with, but how close i'll ever be with them, i really dont know. let's just wait and see. i'd love to regale you with my insulting humour and messed up life experiences, but i have to go study accounting for assets now.

"its not a mistake if i dont regret it"

2011-04-23T11:28:00.000-07:00

before you do anything, sit down shut up and listen. Now, i want you to remember your resolve, what ever the hell it was and get back that resolve. that feeling in your heart when you said, " im gonna do it". well simply because your gonna need it. people, school has officially started, for jc's and poly's. i've got 4 stacks of untouched lecture notes, fuck it.

i'd expect that by now, most of your resolve has disappeared when school politics started. ooo, this girl that guy kinda shit happens again.

yeah, get your head outta your ass and get the shit outta your head, cus we dont have time for that. other people dont matter, always keep in mind the most important thing that i will have to tell you,

you're the most important person in your life. not the fucker who promises you the moon, or the bitch that shit talks you. not even your best friend who pays for your food or gambles with you or plays lan with you. nope. its just you. why? nononono...why not?

yes yes, i know its really annoying when life gets you down, and you have to keep getting back up on your feet. its exhausting even. but you dont ask why, you just do it, because if you dont, and i say this with sincerity in my voice, hands on your shoulders and eyes looking square at yours, when i say that if you dont, you are fucking dead.

well, after all thats what life is all about isnt it? trying. trying to get to a good secondary school, trying to get into a good poly/jc , trying to get into a good university, trying to get a good job,house,wife,car, then trying to please your boss.

oh yes, sickens me to the core, like someone jerking a fishing hook out of my gut.

here's a little economics, we face SCARCITY when we have unlimited wants and limited resources, hence, we have to make a CHOICE. when that happens we give up the next best alternative by making a choice. when you do that, this is called OPPORTUNITY COST. and well,if you take a step back and look at the things we've given up as opportunities, you realise most of them add up to something called LIFE.

the last bit's not economics, but its true, so lock it up in your 4 inch steel vault of thought, because thats the truth.

so imma leave this bit for you to chew on before i go to bed at.....3.02.

"the trick to living life is not in trying hard, it's in doing the exact opposite."
-joshua choo

almost times up

2011-04-11T12:12:00.001-07:00

heyo,havent updated for awhile...yeah. uh, these couple'o days have been a flurry of running, cycling, fun shioning, durian eating, and a whole lot of other stuff that i cant call to mind right now. oh and lets not forget my nyp orientation camp. got some chio bu's la, dunnow why now see chio bu oso like... numb already. bo feel leh.

well poly is seriously starting soon, and im seriously not looking forward to it. eh fuck. brand new start i guess? haha, thats what i keep telling myself

i know i've made some mistakes in the past, some of which are beyond rectification, most of which i dont regret at all, and none of which are in the grey areas. who says making a mistake means u have to regret it? i say suck it in bitches, and make as many as you can.

life is about making mistakes, death is about wishing u made a whole lot more.

so make as many as you can before the grim reaper comes with that big menacing scythe and claims your soul. rebellion is a healthy part of growing up. although some people consider healthy rebellion an oxymoron, well those people are simply morons.

due to some recent developments, i appear to have discovered that i have an apparent fear for masks. both literal and metaphorical sense.i mean i'm freaked out by clowns,sort of. and other mask adorning characters.

know why? cus you dont know whats behind those masks. im not afraid of the mask, im afraid of what i dont know. just like how people arent afraid of the dark, merely the unknown. more often then not, we can only think we know what we know.

digression here, but sadly the truth is something very hard to come by these days. so if one day, u find it, make sure u grasp it, keep it, and never let it go. in fact, lock the fucking thing in a 1 feet steel vault with a microchip encryption.

its....5:08 now, sorry for the short post, i'll write a longer one tomorrow or something. since i know you guys r just dying for my philosophical and very much twisted knowledge.

Nickelback - Photograph (With Lyrics)

2011-04-01T09:33:00.000-07:00

for what i had, have and always cherish

things i'll think of

2011-04-01T08:22:00.001-07:00

yay i solved my paragraphing problems, its apparently quite simple but im not gonna get technical.

yeah, i was on the phone earlier with jinson,tan, and weesiang. god...words cant describe how much nostalgia im feeling right now.

you know the feeling you get,when you havent looked into you rearview mirror and smile at the seemingly distant memoriesfor quite some time ,then suddenly u come smashing into a huge part of your past and your memories come flooding back? yeah,got that like 5 minutes ago.

it's been too long since we've had a decent conversation together. i mean wee siang has been in jc,so...yeah,too long.

i'll think of the times we stole wang wangs and drinks everytime i stroll past a snack vender,

i'll think of the times we sprint to school together under the deafening shouts of mr hafiz whenever im late for poly

i'll think of the times i called amos instinctively every morning for 4 years without fail, whenever i hear my alarm go off

i'll think of the times we pissed miss shen off in literature class and got her screaming like a mad witch whenevr i look at the flour baby i still keep

i'll think of the times we sat lethargically at the stairs outside 2e5 while waiting for remedial everytime i look at any concrete flight of steps

i'll think of the times we waxed our hair until we looked like we got struck down by zeus, whenever i see the class photos

i'll think of the times i got chased out of music class for being a nuisence

i'll think of the times we soldered the school computer with soldering irons during dnt and almost got our asses hauled to the police station,whenever i switch on my computer CPU

i'll think of us all doing pull ups together and buying seaweed whenever i see a pullup bar while strolling in the park

i'll think of the times everyone suddenly changed, and studied hard for o'levels everytime i see the amath textbook i keep in my studyroomm,like a jewel in a treasure chest

i'll think of the times i made jodi cut her hair cus i spat chewing gum in it for slamming the window panes shut on my fingers,everytime i put a stick of wriggly's in my mouth.

i'll go to sleep tonight, thinking of all the things i miss, and still knowingly crave for

i'll wake up tomorrow with "DJ got us falling in love again" blasting in my ears and i'll instinctively think of calling amos again.

and then i'll see you guys. and after tommorow, it'll just be another day"i'll think of"

n-o-s-p-a-c-i-n-g

2011-03-31T04:10:00.001-07:00

whatthefuck is up with this blog, i cant leave paragraphs la!

2011-03-30T08:44:00.000-07:00

kay so here's what happened. woke up at 4am to send my grandmother to the airport, the got back at 6 plus, slept till 11 plus and went out at 2 plus to go shopping with xun nian. checked out levis jeans and some shirts. walked like crazy around the city area. had lunch at somerset and bought a bag at...somewhere in the city idk where. followed xun nian to buy his A-jay earpiece which cost 70,at stereo at plaza SG. went home and bitched and cried about it cus i spent a whole day doing what girls do.

you know, i really hate it when people bitch and cry(literally) about the most trivial,insignificant, and mundane things. things like, my mom wont let me go out with my friends,or my life sucks cos my audition couple broke up with me,or "omfg i put on like 2 kg!", or not having enough money to buy overpriced clothing, or bitching all the time about their love life (which happens all the time), because somewhere out there, there's people wondering when their next meal is gonna be, there's people clutching the hands of their loved ones in the hospital ICU listening to the monotonous beep of the apnea moniter,there's people dying while we go"ohmygod im so fat!"

the worst is prolly still when people get all fucked up about their love life and relationships. when they go all "if love is stupid, then i stupid you" or "the hardest thing to do is to watch someone you love, love someone else". all that sappy love shit quotes that people can frickin google really gets to me. love quotes are fine, those emo unrequited love shit is not. It’s a really sad thing when people think that there are more important people other then themselves. other people are journeying through different lives, it just so happened that their's crossed paths with yours. Sometimes when people hurt you, they don’t really care, so why should you? There’s hardly anyone worth your tears.So get your head out of your ass and quit being such a pussy idiot.

people should get angry less often, because when they do, they are only punishing themselves for someone else’s mistakes. But right now I cant help it.

hate it when im pissed when im blogging, makes me rant on and on and I cant think of what I wanted to say before. That’s all for now, just gonna continue being pissed.

PS: people should stop hating on hypocrites, because everyone is a hypocrite. That’s cause we fail to completely put ourselves in someone else’s shoes. Even me, but at least I realise it.

love and other drugs

2011-03-29T11:56:00.000-07:00

head brimming with thoughts and heart overflowing with emotions. thats the first step to taking drugs and smoking. damrightimstillpissed.

burn witch burn

2011-03-26T21:32:00.001-07:00

i thought i might start, but before i did, u reminded me to end it. well thanks for that i guess? two years, two fucking years i beeen brooding over it, guilt nibbling at my conscience and regret eating my insides. and only now i realise i wasnt my fault? although exposing the ugly-piece-of-shit-looking side of you was painful, it brought me closure. It was an elaborate scheme, and u got played like a fucking marionette. meh, i had to know,after 2 years. sometimes i wished i didnt,but when i realise how much uglier u are than the truth...yeah,got that warm feeling in my stomach and the guilt and regret disappeared (like whats left of you and me) its sad that you'll never feel what i felt. and fuck you man, i wasnt "acting cool", i didnt act for 4 years bitch, and i certainly didnt act for you. two years is alot of time to be stuck on you, "the rest of my life" is an even longer time to be pissed at you. sometimes the hardest thing to do in life is to know which bridges to burn. you're the one i burn. so burn in hell bitch,along with all the evils of pandora's box incarcerated in you. here's how you do it. step 1: get a gun step 2:put it two your head step 3:pull the fucking trigger. id say "seeya in hell bitch", but im not going there with you. over and out

over

2011-03-26T20:56:00.000-07:00

i've finally found closure, yeah im done.

ordinary

2011-03-23T23:31:00.000-07:00

"she's starin at me
i'm sittin wondern' what she's thinkin'
nobody's talkin; cuse talkin' just turns into screamin'
and now it's im yellin' over her,she yellin' over me
all that means is neither of us is listenin'

so both of us are mad for
nothin'
fightnin' for
nothin'
cryin' for
nothin'
bout we wont let it go for
nothin'."

im alone at home on this lazy weekday, cus i dont remember what day it is today, having lost track of time.

siting on the leather swivel chair in my study room rocking back and forth, back and forth, back and forth till my head spins round. baby right round like a record baby right round,round round. you spin me right rou.... k nevermind.

i might've said this bfore, or something to this connotation, but time passes by us way too quickly. or maybe im the only one that feels that way. i think my life is from the perception a car's rear view mirror. always looking back and that's what makes things seem to pass me by so fast.
cus when your constantly looking back, all you see is the distance you've covered, and it just keeps getting more and more.
the only period when time came to a standstill for me was when i looked at my o'level cert, and when i saw that really hot chick from my dreams. thats about it.

The only time we should look back,is to learn from our mistakes and to cherish our memories, i do it waaaay to often. sitting with my friends lethargically on the steps of stairs,chilling with them at starbucks while having white mocha, or now, sitting alone at home on my leather swivel chair. god,someone needs to break my rear view mirror.

ah crap, i need to stop talking.

PS:girl politics is always so interesting

holidaying my life away

2011-03-20T10:10:00.000-07:00

damn, my legs are aching from all the walking. somehow it seems that whenever women see any shopping oppurtunities, they switch into this deranged shopping frenzy mode,immune to factors that stop them from shopping. Basically they turn into a raging she-hulk. that would be my mom. i can cycle to sentosa from pasir ris for goodness sake, and she can walk more then me. fucking madness.

my holiday in kualar lumpur thus far has been spectecular. i've been horking down durians,charbroiled ribeye's,dim sums,bah gua's,chilli crabs,pepper crabs, and a whole lot of stuff that makes u feel good when eating, but makes u want to kill urself out of guilt after.

im staying in hotel vistana, this neat place with decent prices, proximate of the monorail here, so occasionally i can hear the somewhat soothing indistinct rumble of the arterial monorail carrying commuters to and fro their busy lives. makes me wonder what im doing with my life. Incidentally, what AM i doing with my life?

i have not an iota of clue. well,aside from almost screwing up my o'levels,getting into a prolly dreary polytechnic course decided by my parents, and not attained a girlfriend for the whole 17 years of my life. mmm...

ho hum..

should i do anything with my life? its alot easier to do the opposite. What CAN i do with my life? uh...do well in business course, become a rich man, donate to the poor and help minimise(yeah u cant stop it) global warming? thats the most meaningful thing i can come up with.

im dead tired now, 1:45 here in KL. goodnight peoples.

it sucks that we dont have a "right click,delete" button for our memories.
over and out.

nothing strange bout the changee

2011-03-17T10:42:00.000-07:00

morning woke up,bought ingrediants with debbie at ws. she...messed up her cake. big time. i rocked mine. even bigger time. but was fun lol. ah well, first time of many others. then met up with jinson,tan,weesiang,mark and gang at sakura,tamp safra. ate alot. celebrated jinsons birthday ( HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO! ) played pool, went to jinsons house at 12:01 to give him his present and headed home. bathed and lying on my bed blogging. what a day.

i cant think of anything at all to blog about, honestly. so here's to a certain troubled soul. call it comfort food for the dejected if you will.

change. its not part of nature. it IS nature, friends change people change. yeah..so what?

"even though we've changed and we're all finding our own place in the world, we know that when the tears fall and the smile spreads across our face,we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us, nothing will ever change so much to the point that we're not still friends."

good friends, u can throw away and they still come back to you.
true friends, u cant throw away in the first place.

so if anything needs to change, its turning the frown upside downn.

here's to jinson, mah brudder from anudder muddder!

you prolly dont read my blog anw, but wadever.

if your're feeling high or feeling down,
you know we'll always be around,
whichever direction life spins us off to,
these five familiar faces will be supporting you,
we'll be your aegis,
we'll be your armour,
cus thats just what we do,
and yeah,you got your sister too,
we're your brother,
from another mother,
so nobody better fuck with you.
(or they'll have this chinese nigga to contend with)

thats the shit.

anw,happy birthday bro. heh, hope you have a nice one :)

over and out,
j*****s****c***

deja vu?

2011-03-15T10:04:00.001-07:00

so jinson and i went cycling today, rained like fuck so we stopped at laguna and ate. alot. well i admittedly did most of the eating. gonna get the dumb bells from jinson tmrw, tyjy. continued cycling to the end of of east coast, jinsons antique looking bicycle's pedal came off, so i was assigned the cumbersome task of pushing him back to his aunts house, single handedly. lite-fucking-rally. homed after that,reached about 7 plus 8. ate dinner, played resident evil on ps3 and now blogging. at......1:13.

while eating at laguna,jinson said that felt like deja vu. so i've decided to touch on that topic alittle.

deja vu, for those who are unfamiliar with the term, refers to that feeling of extreme familiarity, at any event. this is an unexplainable phenomenon, which makes me feel like pulling my hair out even more, whenever this shit happens. deja vu is french for" already visited". obviously u can make the connection. i've tried finding out all possible reasons at to why deja vu occurs, all of which are ambiguous. its just freaking annoying whenever it happens because i know that it could'nt possibly have happened before, so why the sense of familiarity? if theres one experience i dont mind having deja vu of, its seeing the chick from my dream. seriously, who the hell is she.
geez...hope i see her tonight.

do not believe in fate. there's no such thing. If fate existed,
then everything would be preordained,
just waiting to happen,
and if u know that something is meant to happen,
then theres no need for hope,
if there's no need for hope,
there's no need for faith,
if there's no faith,
there's no religion,
if there's no religion,
there's no god,
if there's no god,
there's no me,
no me,
you wouldnt be reading this.

Nothing is "meant" to happen. u make it happen,its ur life, u make it happen.

Whats the meaning of life? the purpose of life? philosophers, theologists and scholars have cracked their head over this. well i think those dumb fucks have wasted more than half their life trying to figure out why they live.

im a 17 year old,with only a o'level cert,pursuing a diploma, and i can tell you whats the purpose of life.

the purpose of life is to live it with a purpose.

THE MEANING OF LIFE?
whatever you want it to be.

you can google this, but i guess confucious was too busy searching for the meaning of life to turn on the computer.

PS: dont compare your life to others, you have no idea what their journey is all about.

goodnight people, over and fucking out.

dream a little dream

2011-03-14T10:35:00.000-07:00

its one thirty five in the morning now, and before i sleep, this post is dedicated to HER. yes most of you must be wondering who this interesting female compadre is, one who has so enthralled me and gotten me up at 1.35 blogging about her. well now, interestingly enough, the identity of this captivating female is anonymous even to me. i saw her in a dream, and im pretty fucking sure this shit has never happened before. and i can swear i've never taken fag,dope or any other kinda shit that induces a high. But she is probably the most beautiful person, i have ever seen. well, second most, the first is this chick i saw at the library, but i dint get a closer look so im not so sure. digressions aside, this chick i saw in my dream is beautiful. so much so that using profanities in this post seem almost harsh enough to tarnish the perfect image i have of her.

Heres how the dream went:

The dream started with me bent over, lifting some heavy cartons, the strain on my arched back causing me to grunt. Beads of pespiration tricked playfully down my temples and sides, i wiped them away with my rough chapped hands,realising how weather beaten i was. All this took place alongside what appeared to be the stony pavements beside a huge canal in paris(or so it seemed),the kind often connected by those arched stone bridges which somehow or rather brings about a medieval feeling. The streets were illuminated by the streets lamps casting a warm glow of yellow, which surprisingly lacked the eerie effect.

The next thing i know, i am standing in a stony labyrinth of some kind. Im walking along the corrider of those echoey stone walls, lighted by oil lamps. Take note nothing in this dream feels eerie or scary in anyway,its not a freaking nightmare. Im still carrying a carton, although im not sure where to. i walk and theres a room on my right. As i walk past it, thats when i saw her, and in that glorious fleeting moment, i swear time slowed down, exactly like those dramatic moments in the movies when, a soldier of war watches while his partner gets torn apart by shrapnel, or when the matrix dodges a bullet.

Golden-brown hair,slightly permed at the ends fell past her slender shoulders.
She had the finest complexion and the damnest figure.
Her almond eyes,with a glitter of enigma drew me right in, inescapably.
Her lips had the distinct shade of light vermillion, full and pouty.
The shape of her face was perfect in very single way,
as though the greek gods held a conference to chisel the perfect face. and she was the result.
god, she was beautiful.

slowly, the corners of her mouth curved upwards to form sublime and alluring smile. the smile that would put all the evils of pandoras box back inside and make you feel, for that one moment, transcendental. As quickly as it came, that perfect moment disappeared.

My fucking phone rang, and song DJ got us falling in love again dragged me back to the painful chasm of reality. my eyes opened and i sat upright, afraid that i'd probably never see that phantasmal entity again. yes, entity because its beauty exceeds humanity's grasp. When you know you are in a dream but you dont want to wake up, and reality forcefully calls for you,leaving u and your emotions behind. yeah that sucks. never have i remebered a dream so vividly before. meh. fucking phone. LISTEN TO NELLY_ JUST A DREAM because thats exactly how i feel, no more no less.

"Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love,
to work,
to play,
to look up at the stars,
and to dream."

goodnight peeps, sweet dreams.

2011-03-13T20:31:00.000-07:00

Im typing this post over the booming sound of my grandmother speaking rather voiciferously into the phone, its a wonder why neither my grandmother nor the person at the other end of the line is deaf yet. i cant understand a thing she's saying anyway, 'cept when she says "wueh lor mai!". which according to my dad, means mother fucker. i have tried, albeit in vain, to understand the complex dialect of hainanese. ( i cant count to ten though!) its a nice windy morning, with some dark clouds looming overhead, casting a dim atmosphere in pasir ris but surprisingly elevating my spirits. Idk how we're gonna play badminton later but we'll see how it goes.

you know the one thing i hate about smsing, is that it lowers ur emotional quotient(eq). ppl can hide behind the mask of those 4 inch super amoled touch screens and talk to others with ease, but when they meet up, they can say fucking squat. hinders ur communication abilites if u ask me.

"In the fell clutch of circumstance,
I have not winced nor cried aloud: Under the bludgeoning of chance my head is bloody,
but unbowed"

fuck the oppresssors. do it your way.

Colby O'donis feat. Akon - What you got

2011-03-12T08:15:00.000-08:00

maybe your not seeing the side of me you should

2011-03-12T06:37:00.000-08:00

today i went out with jinson and tan go cycling. we...cycled to sentosa. one word. IM-FUCKING-BA. i'd get out of bed now and apply the muscle relieve cream to my legs, but i think i left my legs back in sentosa. got up at 9 plus, jinson and tan woke me up when they came to my house. then cycled to clinic to collect my medication, lost my puch containing my wallet and phone otw back. panicked and retraced my steps, rammed into a woman otw. serves her right, blind bitch stoning in the middle of the pavement.

when u see a cyclist rushing at you with a hint of insanity in his eyes, fucking MOVE. anw, two honest to god bangladeshi workers found my pouch and kept them for me. i will try my best not to ever make fun of bangla workers again. although i wanted to racistly comment that i had a harder time finding them then the pouch, but since they are such kind souls that uphold integrity, i didnt tell them that :)

anyway, i shant bore u with the details of the cycling route. we got to sentosa and proceeded to siloso beach, although the lack of chio bu's dampened my spirits alittle. otw back, tan punctured his bicycle's rear tyre. replaced it at the nearest bike shop,but he got pissed off at the kiam pa kia at the shop. my legs cocked up, so tan went home first , me and jinson went home later. homed, bathed and ate hokkien mee at ws. now here blogging about it.

um..one of the reason y i started blogging again is cus i realised my memory's failing me, cant rmb recent stuffs. and they are too important to forget...so yeah.

kay, boring bit's over. um, while i was at ntuc buying chips and pasion fruit tea, i kinda rmbred a question jinson asked me. which was" who are the three ugliest pple u know?" yeah, i shant mention names but two are from tpss and the last frm my pri school. then it got me thinking, how i treated her(yes,the person's a her) and how i would treat her now.

please read to the end!!!***************

IN PRIMARY SCHOOL: the chinese teacher asked the routine question of who didnt bring the chinese text book in mandarin. A slightly chubby looking kid, fashioning a thick,mushroom looking hairstyle routinely raised up his hands. " quickly share with someone!" she commanded in a harsh, prominant china accent. Time came to a standstill as the young boy gazed around the classroom. There were many available partners to share with, but he picked one that he would come to regret.

cherrie was a relatively short girl, sprouting pimples and severe acne all over her face, causing her to look slightly disfigured. she had uneven teeth and, but quite a cute smile. her figure was smack in the middle of normal (by socially accepted standereds) and plump. she always wore those white socks pulled up so high they made her look like those NFA players. but, she was a nice girl, always getting insulted instead of insulting others. funny thing was, she always seemed cheerful.

The young boy pulled out the chair next to her and sat down. the class began jeering and someone asked, "sit next to her for what?". and thus began the boy's slow descent to unpopularity. all because he sat with an unpopular girl.

IN SECONDARY SCHOOL: "what the fuck!! phoebe so ugly!", commented some of the students of 4e3. "face like bomb lidat" said one particular boy. as he continued rocketing off snide comments, he was suddenly reminded of this one girl from his primary school. "cher...cherry..cheerie.." he thought to himself, but couldnt remember. As he recalled this girl, he fell silent and stopped making fun of the girl called phoebe. He then realised how much he had changed. a tinge of sadness and guilt nibbled away at his conscience.

THE END

sadly folks, in both cases, i am that boy. only today when jinson reminded me of cherrie,did i clearly see the change in myself. he reminded me also of the sad, sad fact that i used to be a nicer person. insulting others who could'nt fit in so that i could. but thinking about it now, i dont regret insulting phoebe, because if not i would'nt have fit in with this perfect group of friends that i have. i just regret that those people out there didnt get a chance to fit in.

so guys, be nice. dont end up like me, this sad soul who ends up half filled with regret( im not THAT regretful) , guilty of being part of the judgemental crowd who didnt give others a chance to fit in, jus so that he could barely squeeze in. i know people change, but arent they suppposed to change for the better? so what the hell is happening.

trying to convince myself otherwise is like trying to convince urself that u werent the one that wet your bed when you were 8, or looking at the hottest girl in school and telling urself,"its just a crush", or telling urself ur not part of the crowd responsible for global warming. one word describes it all. delusional.

Now, i occasionally try to make ammends, maybe i can get closer to redemption, if i actually need any. donating money, trying to be friendlier, accepting different people into your group of friends so u can make their life less miserable.

so i'll end this post with something to chew on. " if u could, would you be the nice kid and be ostracized from everyone else, or the kid with everyone else making fun of those who couldnt fit in." i know it seems easy to say the former option, but reeeeally think about what you'd have to go through."

seems so short, but its been too long

2011-03-08T07:33:00.000-08:00

hello world. its been about a year i think...since i last blogged. wow, how things have changed. i cannot BELIEVE im here again. the last time i was updating my blog i was still studying for o'levels. now, i've been to innova,appealed to nyp and got in (thank god), made new friends and thrown away old ones. typing here is like....looking at the power ranger toy u havent seen since u were 7 or like finding the sec 1 emaths homework that u were supposed to hand up.

all im saying is that, when u look at two very different point in your lives, the first thing u think about is the change in between. then u look at the guy in the mirror and go," how the hell did i end up here?"

This post is dedicated to my sec school life. well, i've managed to ski past four years of my life, got away with vandalism( put the soldering iron in the computer CPU), stole drinks and wang wang's from the drink stall, do 24 pull ups(fuck yeah), and survived mr hafiz's lessons even managing to sleep without getting caught. yes,what u have just read is prolly the most proudest achievements in my sec school life. quite pathetic i know, but thats me. i'm grateful for the friends that i've made, however temporary, and blessed for those that i still have. if there's one thing i can say after the four years of my secondary school life, it is this. That i wouldnt trade it for anything, and that i wish i could do it again.

okay, so this is about todays outing :) went out with jinson, tan, weeisiang and debbie. met at 3, went to sakae sushi and almost died of sushi overdose. had some good laughs but now i cant rmb what they are about. then went to LAN. l4d2 was epic. i teamed up with debbie and still survived. how crazy is that right? yeah then we walked around t1 and tm...yadda yaddah...bought hi chews...yaddah yada...went to toys r us to relive our childhood memories..yadda yada..went home and blogged about it.

that was the boring bit, heres the interesting bit for you to chew on. lets talk about something meaningful. say..human relationships. no, not that cheesy romantic shit that makes u quesy and whisper "awww",right before your mom slaps u for being a pussy idiot. relationships with people u like and dislike.

the very first thing u need to realise is that, no two persons idealogy or personality are interlinked. when two people have different perceptions, and their ideologies clash, there is bound to be conflict. why do u think we have the cold war, and the cuban missle crisis? ( history and ss much?haha)
anyway, its not the conflicts thats the problem. its how u solve them. either u deal with it by confrontation, which might lead to more conflicts but eventually acceptance,
or you leave. when u leave,its simple, just have these two things with u, ur integrity and ur dignity.

dont ever,ever let others make your choice for you. "i am the master of my fate;the captain of my soul" anyone tell you otherwise,tell them fuck off.

this is for the oppresed and broken hearted. cheer up world :)

if life could be sweet

2010-05-21T04:37:00.000-07:00

i saved five bucks today man.yeah!okay....seriously need to cut down on the posts now.shows that i have no life and have nothnng better to do then to be sitting in front of th comp typing out some random bs.LAllalalALLAlALALA.hmm...hows life?nice eh,exams approaching.mid year done,then its june,then its SA,then prelims,then o's then byeeess.hmm....lets talk about life 50 years from now.hmm...take a peek into the future.lets make a character called old joshua,and lets see how the story progresses..

65 old joshua is walking down the street,wearing a plain black shirt that says startfucks,a brown french beret hat, and a bermuda drooping with the weight of a heavy wallet.joshua is a rather eccentric old man,but the kids in the neighbourhood like him,they find him amusing and friendly.he stays in a condominium called ashfordville,along pasir ris drive 1. He loafs around the void decks of the condo's in his spare time,which,is something that he never seems to lack.Mid 60's,divorced with a daughter in his wife's custody, and alot of money to spend,but nothing to spend it on.when age catches up with you,the only thing u want to buy is time.

Anyway,old joshua reaches whitesands mall,which,by now is a mega mall,bustling with spoilt teenagers loitering around in their uniforms.The little bastards have evolved and their mouth is now a m61 vulcan gatling gun powered by vulgarities.fires 4 to 6 thousand rounds a minute.old joshua prefered them when they were younger and more innocent.he weaves his way through the throng of teenagers,finally making his way to the entrance. Then he sees three very familiar figures,one tall, considerably lean guy with considerably long hair,sitting inconsiderably. "fucker" joshua things to himself. then his gaze shifts to the other two, one is rather stout with small eyes and low stature. his smile reveals a row of crooked and coffee stained teeth. lastly, the third person has a height comparable to that of the first person. He is wearing white spectacles, white jeans and has either a too small shirt or a too big body(probably the latter), he is the most decently dressed amongst the three. old joshua randomly comes up with three names off the top of his head for them. "hmmm...wee siang, ah tan( cus he looks like an 'ah peh') and...lets just stick with fucker." :D

2010-05-20T07:58:00.000-07:00

BREAKING NEWS : JOSHUA IS STUDYING!!

AL-FUCKING-RIGHT!!!!!mid years almost over!!sonofabitch,after mid year ar.......(....)

2010-05-14T05:03:00.001-07:00

hey guys,hows the mid year exam so far?decided which ITE to go to yet?i was thinking simei one,closer to my house la.haha,jkjk.the exam,almost every paper i say the same thing,"can pass,cannot pass well" ah well,chillax la,its not so bad right?i mean simei ite really IS kinda near wad.....

yo heres a math equation i remembered from emaths paper 2.

ahem*
simplify the following equation:

after the mid year exam = l4d + gym + watching movies + alittle studying + relax + friends sleep over + cycling with tzr

got the answer?its really very simple,here:

(by factorisation)
after mid year exam=RELAXXXXXX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeah!..oh oh oh oh !!! heres another one.

simplify the following inequality:
during june holidays>study alot and do well in o'level>slack and relax and study alittle.

during june holidays>study alot and do well in o'level(reject)

OR

study alot and do well in o'level> -slack and relax and study alot

by factorisation,

study alot and(do well in o'level)> -study alot and(slack and relax)

(cancelling out common factors),

do well in o'level>-slack and relax.

slack and relax>do well in o'level

okay thats just random...but yeah=)

now moving on proper.hmm....oh yea,there was this one time during the exam,the paper finish liao,then i got nothing to do and i had a free paper so common sense la,nothing do so start drawing lor.then while collecting the papers there was this ehh...corpulent teacher,who started saying alot of stuff about you know,how ur not allowed to do this kinda thing during o'level and she started nagging alot lah.i would like to say something bad about her ah,but u know how it is,with teachers reading our blog and stuff nowadays la.oh well,i'll leave the criticism up to u to imagine la.(!@#$%$!@$#%!@#$%!@$%&^$%!*@$%@^&# ^$!!!!)

btw,i know a few people who has had a really bad day these past few days,namely,uhh... me,me,me and uh lets see..me.so heres a lil "bad day" joke to cheer y'all up.

there was this guy sitting at the bar staring at his drink for half an hour without drinking it.then this fella shows up and drinks his drink.the first guy starts to cry profusely and he would'ny stop.so the second guy says,"come on man,here,i'll buy u another drinki hate to see a grown man cry.

then the first guys says,"no,its not thats.its just that today was the worst day of my life.i woke up late,went to work late,my boss fired me,i left to building and found out my car was stolen,took a cab home and realised i left my wallet on the taxi but it was too late,i opened the door and found my wife sleeping with another man."

"then i come to this bar and was thinking about putting to an end to my life,then u show up and drink my poison."

so for those guys like me who think they've had a bad day,think again eh.haha.

i really dont know what to say liao....i think this blog is gonna be more of a comfort solution for those troubed souls who read the posts,rather then u know,a personal kinda thing.i mean what personal stuff do i have to say other then,"i'm awesome" right?

oh yeah!i'm screwed for the literature paper btw.but it's okay!let future joshua handle it,its not my problem.let the present joshua enjoy himself la.okay,gonna go to whitesands now and walk around because i have nothing to say,and besides,theres a pasar malam there(however the hell u spell it). ciao and haveanicelifepeople*winks*

2010-05-03T03:42:00.000-07:00

okay sorry bout the 2 previous random posts.was doing maths with tzr and i realised i havent blogged in awhile,heck,i even almost forgot my password. anyway,yeah i'm back to posting stuff again,tho not as often la.okay...stuff that happened recently that i havent blogged about...uhh,yeah i started wearing contact lens for awhile then stopped,then started again.it fluctuates la,depends on whether i wake up early enough in the morning to wear anot.then...oh yea,now its already mid year exams liao,and i feel like uhh....i'm already screwed.yeah and oh yea!recently ran with afiq on sat morning.like 6 plus.sia la,we run fcking far sia,16 km leh.in like....1 hr 20 mins.not bad eh?but of course that took like,half my life away la.that leaves me with half a life left.one quarter of the half is taken away by the stress from the exams,and the remaining quarter is taken by all the radiation from playing video games.haha,yeah i'm a dead man walking.i'm thinking of training more to run for a marathon.i think theres a 20 km army half marathon comingin august or september or something la.hmm,mayb i'll go for it.see how la.

okay i just left a paragraph here,see,because if not then my posts would look too long winded and no one would bother to read it.then again no on already does bother to read it anyway.hmm,i wonder if there's a way to see who reads my blog.hmm...nope,dont think so........................OMFGWTFCCBKNNWDFBBQ!!!!!! horrifying thought....what if phoebe reads my blog.*shudders*..

okay now see here,i just left a now paragraph because i'm toking about something different now.now i want to talk about the mid year exams.eh people,dont stress la.seriously man,i'm not saying we shud not take the exam seriously,but u know,u should'nt shorten ur life like that,its not healthy.anyway we should still study hard la,o levels this year leh.right not?so jia you and GLHF ah.think about it this way la,*STRESS* u go and rearrange,u get the word*RESTSS* so u should rest more ma.okay??

okay,moving on....oh yea,i duno why this is happening ah,but my relationship with my frens seem to be fluctuating alot.i have no idea why.its like....okay i give u example.joshua likes group A of ppl,he does not like group B of people.then,he suddenly likes group B of people and not group A.funny leh,i duno why is lidat.i shant mention names la.go find out urself.

okay now i wanst to tok about the june holidays.eh no,wait,after the exams first.after the mid years exams,lets all go to seoul garden to celebrate la.e5 ppl all must go=me,amos,shan jin,weesiang,tan,mark(if he can),jodi,chuluan,jia qi,(and summore i cant remeber who la.) then some of the e3 ppl mus go oso=zheng hao,uhh...yeah i think thats all leh.others can !!!! off.yeaps.malay guys i'd like them to go but i think dont think its halal.

okay,for those who cant catch on right,here's what i'm trying to say in the above message.i'm trying to establish 2 things.firstly,i'm sort of calling for a gathering for us to just chillax.and AHAH!secondly,i'm trying to say,if u cant read between the lines,is that all the people i mentioned above,are all my closest friends an people i can clique with and people that arent mentioned,can jolly well fuck off,: i.e:if ur name isnt mentioned above,its means that u can shove a sledge hammer down ur throat for all i care.which,incidentally,i dont.in a nutshell,i just said all the people i dislike by....not saying them.huh.....funny how that works.(oh this only applied\s to ppl in my class)

OKAY,thats all for tday.study hard,play hard,and haveanicelifewhileucan.!!! =)

2010-05-02T23:10:00.000-07:00

yeah i just finished maths question!!!

YeAH!!

2010-05-02T22:50:00.001-07:00

YEAHHH!!

warning,fucking random post ahead

2010-03-12T05:26:00.000-08:00

yo.the weeks been a flurry of activities,thoughts,emotions and yadda yadda yadda.oh btw,no poems this post so u can rest assured i spared u the agony of making ur heart retch.uhh....i cant rmb wad happened on monday.i rmbered i had food poisoning on tuesday,so dint come school on wednesday,although i was already relatively cured by then.received some super belated presents, but super awesome nonetheless,thanks.thurs i was in schl again(yeah u have to put up with my face again,deal with it),which,incidentally was aizans bday to.heck i dint know,so i just decided to give her 16$$ for her 16 birthday.okay this happened for reasons,firstly cus its her bday and i dint get her anything,secondly cus she was crying and i wanted to see her cry more.tears of joy that is.ANYWAY,lucky she rejected my "gift" cus i was planning on saving that 16 bucks.eh its the thought that counts anyway,s'long as she knows i'm sincere can liao.fri,pack here and there,last day in the godforsaken school with only 2 fans in class,so took pictures here and there too.yeah,then uh..lanned aftr schl.and i dont know why,but i had a fucking bad mood today.really pissed.wad made me even more pissed was that i dint know what i'm pissed about.

OKAY!boring parts over,now here comes the MORE boring part.u are about to become smarter,because im about to impart some knowledge about life unto you.and by knowledge about life i dont mean having sex and making babies,no.im just gonna tell u the most meaningful things i have ever heard or thought of.

only one thing about change remains constant.its that it is always painful,and always happening.

add love to any equation,and the boundries between right and wrong are bound to disappear.

forget what you're told,before you become too old.

ur feelings only hurt if you let it.

and lastly,not the most meaningful,but my favourite because it's sure as hell the most fucking true

everyone lies.

yeah,feel enlightened?

ahh....i never thought i'd say this,but i dont like my life right now,its too messy.i mean, i like messy,its less restricting,flexible,you dont have a care in the world,and you can put ur things anywhere and anyway u like them.but when it becomes too messy,you cant find ur things,hell,you dont even know what they are anymore.dont know what to do.fuck.i dont like not knowing what to do.

ohkay,um....here's what's going on in my head.literally,ur about to see whats going on in my mind.all the random thoughts and all..

******"i'm 16 this year.....why dont i fel 16?feel like i'm dreaming.tired.i wanna run later.haisss......FUCK LA!FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!.this is frustrating....*another voice asks,"what is frustrating?"...*i reply,fuck you,i dont FUCKING KNOW!*then...the thing thats running thru my head is...."i wonder what happens if mis idzhana is reading this.does she read blogs anyway?wonder if it'll sour her impression.ah who cares!?i've got more things to wory about.likee figuring out what's making me so frustrated.i wanna read chinese newspaper later,improve my chinese.i've got tuition next friday,as wel as the school soft launch.how?go for which ah?will the school accept parent letter?hmm....i need to put more new songs in my phone.the weather is fucking hot,duno whether later should on air-con anot.should i eat later?what should i even eat?i'm kinda hungry.*cracks all my knuckles and joints,including neck,elbow,knee,toes.i should stop doing that,people say its bad to crack joints.why though?makes me feel good,can release stress.i feel like puching the wall,because i spoke about releasing stress,punching the wall is one good way.yeah.budden,what am i stressed about?i still dont fucking know.its like......i swear i can feel my mind just keep thinking and thinking and thinking.i have no idea why.but at around 2 am in the morning the thinking finally stops,when the lights are all off and my whole family is asleep.duno why either.can just lay in bed and relax.ohkay,now its really fucking hot.i think i'm gonna on the aircon later.i need to start studying,because i feel guilty that i'm not.i'll mess up my future at this rate,just like my bro.i dont want to mess it up.FUCK.but then...do i even have a future?i wanna be a journalist or smth to do with writing and i want to make lotsa money.is it a posible prospect?its not easy to get recognition in those circles.haha,circles,my mind is going around in circles.josh,get a grip,get a fucking grip.*okay okay.sometimes i really like that other voice in my head,it feels like i got someone to talk to.helps me to organise my thoughts to.well,its not reaally another voice.its me.talking to myself in a 3rd person perspective.i'm talking to myself.am i going mad?is this what mad people go through?but then again,if i was mad would i be asking myself this question in the first place?what goes on in mad people's head and minds?do they tell themselves this is just the way they think,that they're not mad?ah,my bloody sister's talking on the phone,noisy as hell.the way she talks on the phone is just so...eee...unnatural.mayb its her boyfriend.but eh,ho would have such weird taste?but mayb she's not that bad looking,mayb its just that i;ve been looking at her face for the past 16 years so im sick of it.i dont know.....i dont even know what i dont know anymore.FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!hais.feeling like the thoughts in my head now is less.....dense.feel a little lighter."******

u see?now imagine all those thoughts,in like a minute.thats alot of things i'm thinking of.eh well.i think i really shall run now.bye.

what happened today....?

2010-03-05T08:12:00.000-08:00

at first glance u see a person,its a blurred perception,

after knowing 'er awhile u realise its just a misconception.

i look at the people around me with a heavy heart

and i realise we're nothing but far apart.

its just the same people interposing,

in groups of different gatherings.

they bitch about,here and there

without realising they're getting nowhere.

how i wish i could turn time around,

and send them fifty feet underground.

and just when i'm starting to feel all hope is lost

old friends gather and i feel there's ppl i still can trust.

we go all out and have a game of pool

even though some of us are acting like a fool.

but now sitting here,typing this

the simmering anger that began to settle

is now starting,once again to sizzle.

"ah fuck it!"i hiss in sighs

with weary eyes i look at the ground

and wish we didnt have those bitches around

but i'll tell you right here right now ,here's the irony of it all;

its that when they quarrel and grow more further

those bitches bring me and my friends closer.

they are sadly and unfortunately provocative in every way

which mean,sadly and unfortunately,they get things done their way.

although i know they only fuck around and seem to cause strife

all i can do,is make them a part of my already chaotic life.

okay

2010-03-03T06:32:00.000-08:00

kay ppl,ur prolly wondering whats up with all the twisted poetry,yeah uh...i dont do aything but pretend to listen in class so i figured i might as well try some poems.and ey....its pretty dam good.anyway,these weeks are packed with tests and shit,so good luck people.i already failed 2,see how many i can hit this time.well...thats all for now,at least till something interesting happens,like phoebe dying,or smth like that.

goodbye goodbye

i'mma sending u off with a rhyme

hit the books and study hard,

cus with all the tests coming,ur gonna get fucked

oh and i had a physics test today

think i may get a A,yay.

anyway,dont forget to give ur best

for all the damn upcoming test

do ur best and you'll be alright

its time for me to turn off the lights,goodnight.

2010-03-03T06:18:00.000-08:00

he is now busy studying,

for the test tomorrow he is dreading

with a pen in his hand,and his mind full of stress

oh please,oh please someone help this boy in distress

in the room that he sits in all alone

that dumb fuck still has his fingers glued to his phone

he took a deep breath and tried to banish all his thoughts,

then took a deep breath and realised all hope is lost.

so instead of studying for the test that is coming

he thought he'd rather go back to gaming.

Hallelujah,i'm the contemperary shakespear!

she could only be his friend

2010-03-03T05:52:00.000-08:00

the innocent boy stared blankly into space

he found himself thinking of her face

a moment passed when he realised he clutched a pen

it then dawned on him that she could only ever be his friend

as his mind wandered through the fun they had in the past weeks

a silent tear crept slowly down his cheeks

he wiped the tears away with a trembling hand

as he realised she could only be his friend

he would trip and he would weep

but he knew he would one day take the leap

he shook his head and cleared his thought

as he held back the silent tears he fought

the boy looked ahead with a plan

because he realised she could only be his friend

the boy writing this and wasting his time,

found this to be a fucking good rhyme

2010-02-06T20:40:00.000-08:00

yah,this is definitely a better week.no infocus no shit.'cept for the SPA.think i messed up a little here and there.nvm,still got part 2.hmm...few things happening,me and the guys are going to sake sushi(ss) on thurs.coming thurs.gonna play tennis with ws then and show that smug piece of shit that the last time he beat me was purely coincidental.then theres..oh yea,my brother has finally gone to ns.haha,good thing too,he can finally slim down.its at....tekong i think.bmt always at tekong one wad.suddenly my house feels like a spell of silence has been cast over it.then uh...oh yea good luck for the coming bio SPA.i hope theres a few ppl to screw it up with me.finally finished hi my sweet heart.dunno wad that is,thats ur problem.oh for the chinese people,me included despite my extremely poor command of the language,HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR IN ADVANCE!!!!!i dont really know when it is,so i'm just gonna wish it now.gong xi fa cai,hong bao na lai.for chinese illiterates,it means happy new,pass the hong bao's over!!!yeah.then uh...lets see....i need to disgorge anything i wanna say now cus i'm prolly just gonna update once a week.hmm...oh yea did u noe that u can use facebook in ns?well u do now.uhh...i'm really struggling to say anyting i might wanna say..hmm.oh yea!i finished the asssesment i had during the SMU thingy.okay la,had a witers block when doing the scaffold.the question is:experience is the death of innocent,write a prose piece to demonstrate this explaining its effects and whether or not this is true.was kinda freaked out at first,summore there was onli 2 ppl in the room.me and this girl from crescent girls school.tats a good school right?i think.anyway....took like 2hrs 15 mins to do the whole thing.rushed abit so details in certain aspects of the story may be sketchy.uh..i really have nothing left to say now,will update later if anything.

2010-01-29T03:00:00.000-08:00

well, this week hasnt been much more interesting then the last,nor anymore fun.rush,still.in fact maybe even more so this week.ah,i'l get used to it..nxt week'll definitely be better,no infocus.yay,we're taking the lift from the 13th level of hell to the 12th.

okay,few funny things happened. u see,me and wee siang were playing this game we call...well we havent called it anything yet.for convenience sake,we'll call it blah.anyway,we were playing blah in literature lesson cus we were bored.this is how the game goes.ur friend,thinks of a word and he says it out.then,consequently,u will say any random sentences,leaving a distinct pause at the end for your friend to say the word.this is how me and siang played.

me:kay uh...potatoe?the word is potatoe?
weesiang the fucker:okay.miss shen is a ?
me:potatoe
weesiang the fucker:ur mum is a ?
me:potatoe
weesiang the fucker:ur dad is a ?
me:potatoe
weesiang the fucker:ur sister is a ?
me:potatoe
weesiang the fucker:TAN is a?
me:potatoe
weesiang the fucker:tan is a?
me:potatoe
weesiang the fucker:tan is a ?
me:potatoe
weesiang the fucker:tan is a ?
me:potatoe
weesiang the fucker:tan is a?
me:LOLOLOL fuck U LA.*hits him.

LOLOLOLOL

the objecive of the game is to not laugh when using the word.HAVE FUNN!!!

this is for all the lonely people.

2010-01-23T11:03:00.000-08:00

the fact that i'm still awake at this time on a saturday night or unconventionally referred to as sunday morning is testimony to two facts.that im a friggin insomniac or that i'm nocturnal.its 2.30 and i have barely an ounce of fatigue in my body,oh well.the past week has been a rush of feverish activities,what with the infocus and what not.hectic really.looking forward to a better next week.i have to tell you,there's a surprising effect to all the excessive talk and hype about the o'levels.i know that talking about the o'levels is supposed to intill a sense of fear to inspire and or motivate us to study.however,when ppl talk about this too much,it actually has an adverse effect,probably due to the fact that we become to accustomed to the tension and pressure.so please,oh please stop talking about the o'levels ppl,because i want to study.that's a weird sentence.

this is to miss idzhana's cme topic about "what u see yourself in 10 years time".oh for the record she's not a bad teacher.(miss idzhana i hope ur reading this.)

what we see ourselves in 10 years time huh.well,in 10 years time we'll be 26 and by that time i'm already through with bout 1/3 my life.(1/3 for guys,1/4 for girls.girls live longer then guys.i'll talk about y another time.)i think that the real question we should be asking is what we hope to have acheived by then,rather then asking ourselves literally,how we see ourselves in 10 years time.because that would merely be scraping the superficial aspect of what time can do to you in 10 years.10 years is a long time.time changes the way your perceive things,which in turn changes the way you react to things.digressing from the main topic,do you guys really think things will be the same in 10 years?its a really scary prospect if u ask me.i dont think i'll be calling amos at 6.50 every morning to wake up the bastard,or i'll be running to school just before the bell rings.i'll have finished natonal service by then,the 2 years in ns will have probably seperated me from my closest friends.then we go to uni,assuming i do,i go to different courses from my friends,assuming again,that they have stuck with me through ns.the 3 years in uni will have undeniaby inevitably seperated me from my friends.a painful thought now that you think about it.i'll miss now.no,i'm already missing now.if u get the drift.anyway,digressions aside,what do i hope to have achieved in 10 years.well,i hope to have insured or secured my future in journalism/writing because thats all i know how to do.
OKAY,I'M WRITING IN CAPS TO GET THE ATTENTION OF

THOSE WHO HAVE JUST ENTERED THIS PAGE,ALSO

BECAUSE THOSE WHO HAVE BOTHERED TO READ TILL

NOW ARE NOW TEETERING ON CONTEMPLATING

WHETHER I'M TOO BORING AND THEY SHOULD JUST

CLOSE THIS WINDOW.YEAH,U CAN LAUGH NOW BUT IT

WORKS.ALSO,I'D LIKE TO INCLUDE THAT THOSE WHO DO

NOT READ THIS UPON ENTERING THE PAGE PROBABLY

DONT WANT TO RUIN THE SURPRISE BECAUSE THEY

THINK I'M TYPING SOMETHING IMPORTANT.WELL I'M

NOT.

anyway,people who sincerely have bothered to read till now consists only of losers like me how have nothing better to do then to find weird things to talk about,but ur just as weird to have bothered reading.u can call me eccentric but i'll stick with bored.

okay,the above paragraph may seem long but all i'm trying to say can me incapitulated into a sentence.i hope to be a journalist or something somewhere along those lines because thats all i'm good for.well,fatigue is starting to sink in,eyelids feel heavy,vision turns blurry and indistict.yeap,symptoms of a disease called "i'm tired".but i think i shall persist abit more.what i'm about to say has no regards to o'levels whatsoever,despite having relevance to school life.do you guys like school now?ppl might be complaining that it sucks now,its all stress and all.and ppl prolly wont believe me if i told them i like it.well i do.because of the one simple fact,which has certain correlations to the above paragraph about ns and stuff.and that is i like the present,because i know the future is worse.ppl tell me that working is stress and makes you grow more grey hairs.if u ask me,it kills a part of you.kills the adolscent desires held captive within you that yearns to come out.this is important so i'm going to type in caps.WHEN WE'RE YOUNG WE THINK OF ALL THE THINGS WE WANT TO DO AND BUY WHEN WE GROW UP.DO WE?DO WE REALLY?I DONT THINK YOU SEE YOUR DAD PLAYING PS3'S OR NDS.WHEN U GROW,YOUR MENTAL AND EMOTIONAL WELLBEING IS SUBJECTED TO INEVITABLE CHANGES.PUT IT SIMPLY,U'RE NOT REALLY WHO U USED TO BE.NO MORE,"MOM FIVE MORE MINUTES",NO MORE "WANNA CALL THE GUYS TO WATCH A MOVIE?",NO MORE ANYTHING.I KNOW THIS SEEMS LIKE I'M OVERREACTING AND I'M BEING TO SENSITIVE,BUT THATS JUST BECAUSE THE EFFECT OF MY WORDS ARE AMPLIFIED MY THE CAPS LOCK.but is also reality,the sad,sad reality.

okay,for of those suckers who want to actually read finish everything i said because their pride is telling them that they want to prove me wrong and show that not only losers like me read and write this shit,u just made urself a bigger loser.so to spare you the agony of reading on,i think i'll end here.cheers mate.

toys r us

2010-01-16T05:54:00.000-08:00

mahathir the prime minister called up president george bush one day.the economy was pretty bad and he decided that he needed the help of the president of america.the both of them have had some history of personal feud before,so mahathir knew this was going to be difficult convincing bush to help him.

mahathir:hello president bush,how are you today?

bush:i'm fine thank you.and what gives me the honour of speaking to the prime minister of malaysia?

mahahir:well as you know the economy has been bad recently,i thot you could hep me out,what do you say we put our grudges aside and work together to overcome this global financial crisis.

bush:um..sure,what can i do for you?

mahathir:i was thinking you could hep promote my cars in your country,to boost the economic situation.i'm sure u have heard of the protons.

bush:well sure,i know just the person who can help u.just call this fella.

*sends the number by e-mail.

mahathir:hello,i was told that you could help me promote the malaysia's finest protons.

man:yes?toys r'us here.

studystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudy

2010-01-11T02:52:00.000-08:00

would you waste another day,no,another second, if u knew u knew tommorow was the BIG day?the D-day? DE-day?that day is the o's!!would u be reading this post now?no,u'd be mugging your ass off.so heres the ting..ahem*STOP READING THIS SHIT AND START FUCKING STUDYING!!!

think of it as a form of motivation.

here we go again

2010-01-11T02:39:00.000-08:00

welcome to the second week of hell.it was okay,really.bit awkward at times but,its okay,really.anywayy...the timetable has been changing again,as usual.then uh...maths teacher is this old woman called low leng.idzhana is our form,but u probably already know that,after all this post is a little late.everything else is probably still the same.hmm,wonder what fate has decreed for me this year...?i think,this'll be my o'lvls results,
maths:A1
eng:A1
phy:A1
bio:A1
lit:A1
amaths:A1

is there really anything to talk about?hmm....nope,dont think so.k cya.

passed failing

2009-12-29T22:19:00.000-08:00

tzr called me this morning,disrupting one of the very few occasions i acually get to sleep.i forgot tat i was supposed to meet him at the mrt to go to school and fail physics retest.well,i did anyway.got to school earlier then expected,then sit with dion and azhar they all.slacked awhile before going to phy lab.thot victor ng was supposed to be there or something,end up was this old lab tech woman.then halfway while i was busy failing the phy paper,the old woman sorta freaked out.she saw this cockroach then was like,begging tzr to catch it.seriously,i thot she was going into cardiac arrest.anyway,when all the frenzy was over,i got back to failing the paper,then tzr finished first and waited outside.i didnt wanna make him wait,so i just skimmed thru the paper.almost all the mcq i put C,cus tats the most statisically correct answer.then at about 10.30 arnd thr,my physics re-exam was officially pronounced failed. yay.so aftr tat go to whitesands with tzr,had two cheeseburgers and a coffee.tzr had a running nose.tan was complaining the whole way,saying he needs to go home and take his meds.i think not.

well,he did go home in the end.got home,bathed and watched bleach.if u never heard of it,u have now.bleach is awesome,and i'm not talking about the cleaning agent that makes ur clothes white,no.its a anime.if u never watched it before,mann....get a life.anyway,my sis just got back from malaysia,she stay at the hotel thr with her frens,walau so good.guys,after o'levels uh.oh well,means cannot sleep on her bed now,pity.it has such a nice view at night.oh i got a call from f.u.c.k.(fanclubs united constituition of korea.)they lodged a complain about me insulting park ji-woon.told them to park off.

hmm,dont hate me cus i insulted koreans,people.i jus think its slightly overrated.okay fine,VERY overrated.happy?oh and another thing,singapore idol.yeah,whatthefuck rite?another yalam.(guys u know whats a yalam.)stupid judges,i think sylvia sings way better then sezairi.y all the winners of singapore idol all...uh,nvm shan't say in case i kena charged or something.

anyway,sec 1 camp tommorow!!excited?i noe i am.hi for all of you who dont know me,i'm joshua,from class 1e5.finally going to experience secondary school life,wonder what it's like..?

ignorance is bliss

2009-12-28T22:15:00.000-08:00

okay...i missed the phy re-exam previously so now need go for the one on the 30th.wonder wad happens if i dont go.its on the same day as the concert thingy weesiang ask me go.our schl band performing or smth lidat.i'm just gonna reminisce in the the sec 1 memories and pretend that schl isnt starting soon,that i dont have a phy re-exam,that my o'levels isnt next year,cus some sometimes pretension is jus what's needed.my policy,pretend that somethings not there hard enough,it soon goes away.so far its not working but i'll try.anyway,ahhhhh.......reminiscing...~~~~~~

this post goes back to sec 1 and 2.

i just got kicked out of music class again for the 5 time in a row.thanks mdm ng!yeah..gonna have pe later again.but as usual didt bring my pe attire.ow yong prolly gonna pump us with push ups again.gonnna slack with mark.go down,cannot come up.haha.eh,lata got ng buck chwee lesson,hope he brings pringles or something again.after schl gonna play catching again,huat!

*reality slaps me in the face,back to the present* yeah...those were the days.hais.those suckers not from e5 prolly didnt undertand shit bout what i just said.oh well.think i better stop here before i start crying.going to study phy now.fuck it.

snore city

2009-12-23T12:18:00.000-08:00

its 4.20 and i cant sleep.insomnia much?yeah.i'm sitting here chewing on a stick of wriggleys juicy fruit chewing gum,at 4.20 in the morning.thats the life..just so u people know i havent repaired my fone yet,so dont bother msging or calling.hmm....seriously wads thr to tok about at 4.20 in the morning.OH! lets count sheep,maaybee i can fall asleep.1,2,3,4,5,5,6,7,8,9,10,11,12,13,14,15,16,17,18,19,20,21,22,23,24,25,26,27,28,29,30,31,32,33,34,35,36,37,38,39,40,41,42,43,44,45,46,47,48,49,50,51..,52..53..........54.........55.....................56......................................w-wha..whats after fifty s..s-si.....*head lands on the key board*............

ps:i have nothing to do so i'm just wasting time.dont mind me.

amusement park

2009-12-23T10:14:00.000-08:00

hi i'm bored.i'm jus gonna tok alittle bull now.i was jus thinking to meself..y the korean craze ar?its like everyone everywhere is obsessed with the korean guys now.and girls.hold on.....*shouts out the window* "fuck u park jungsoo!!"...wait for it....*shouts from outside* "oi! chee bye who say one?knn u scold my idol!!nabeiicheebye!!".u get the picture. what kinda name is park anyway?whatever.whatthepark. i'm tired,ur tired,so lets just go to sleep.goodnite.

2009-12-13T13:24:00.000-08:00

hi,its 5.30 am in the morning and well...i'm blogging.ehh....my comp dosent permit me the administrative rights to blog so im using my bro's laptop.so far the holidays are kinda boring.cus,tuition everyday and stuff.hmm...cant wait for school to start so i can start the slow process of killing my freedom again,least its more fun then watching time pass by while holed up at home.i'm going running later.bout 6.haha.*dots*(i duno wadthehell to tok about)

hmm..well,i was toking to my bro earlier bout well,he was enlightening on the apparent adverse effects of having a steady.well,first off he said according to his calculations,u spend a helllotta money on girls.more then u earn.then secondly,which i wholeheartedly agree with is that we cant seem to comprehend the reason why people have a stead now,when they most probably wont be marrying the fella,in other words,they fucking break up anyway.makes no sense if u ask me.hey,dosent seem like much but we spent alot of time debating over this controversial issue.then theres a whole lot of other stuff that we toked about which i shant mention in case u get offended.i'll say one thing tho,one of my fav policies.bro's before hoes.dont know what it means?www.gooogle.com <<< go there,it helps.

think i shall tok alittle more before running.hmm...jon told me u either live for the moment , or u live for the future.well,i say alittle bit of both.but i think living for the NOW is more important. time flies by really quickly,especially the bit thats worth living.suck out everything that life has to offer you,just like the way u devil incarnates suck the money out of ur parents pockets.yeah,i'm toking bout u.dont look to the left or the right u little shit,its u.

hmm...gonna run,gotta run.bye peeps,enjoy this holiday,while u can.

2009-12-09T07:48:00.000-08:00

ws here

now posting for joshua

kk gonna link post tgt

kk u guys go read my post at heavenlybishop.blogspot.com

the one on the eeyoh one

i've got time...dont worry!

(taps foot)

(whistles)

OK NVM i shant wait

for those folks who read

im gonna link THAT post and this post tgt

oh ya,

im gonna be posting on this blog for awhile for joshua

his comp cant post nuts

so anyways

i was ranting on the daylight hantu right?

now got song also for them!

here it goes!!!

Lang jiak hum arh lang jiak hum arh

lang pangsai lang pangsai

hum jiak sai arh hum jiak sai arh

lang jiak hum, lang jiak hum.

taken from the 3 good people the movie

but w/e no copyright for that

anws

why did i put that song?

actually, only 1 similarity with this song and that post.

that post is about the 20-ish looking grandma

this post is on shit.

well, both the same

kk now gonna watch tv liao

hey,

u guys should unwind!

why that long face?

>.> not funny enough arh?

zzz go throw a party, drink beer, have unprotected sex, w/e.

or go drink newater

it is man-made(woman made also, w/e.)

:)

oh ya josh asked me to put as much profanity inside

so here it goes!

fuck fuckitty fuckyy bitchyy slutty whorehole

pantyfucker slut bitch bastard jibai knn fuckface.

k -.-

2009-11-13T20:54:00.000-08:00

tagged by round chan

1. Whats your full name?
joshua choo

2. Do you like your first name?
yea,why the heck not?

3. How long have you liked the person you currently like
bout 3 years.her names jane.she's from victoria

4. Have you kissed anyone in the last 48 hours?
no la

5. Did you cry today?
no la
6. What are you doing this morning at 8 am?
preparing to go tuition

7. What are you doing an hour ago?
talking to jane on the phone

8. What are you currently doing?
talking to jane on the phone and doing this quiz

9. Who last texted you a msg?
jane

10. Have to told anybody you love them today?
jane

11. Do you miss anyone now?
jane

12. Any plans for tomorrow?
jane

13. What was the reason behind the last time you cried?
jane

14. Is there anyone you want to be with now?
jane

15. Have you kissed anyone who's name starts with C?
Nope.J got

16. Name someone who make you smiles today, how?
jane.she always makes me smile

17. Name a friend who's name starts with 'Z'
Zhi Ren lor

18. Which of the friend stays closet to you?
jane
19. Do you prefer to call or to text?
text la,call ex bodoh,i prepaid leh.

20. Was yesterday better than today?
yea.

21. Can you live a day without tv and your phone?
thats practically how i live.

22. Are you mad about anything now?
yea

23. Do you ever think that relationships are really worth it.
not at first,but then i met jane.

24. Last person you visited in a hospital?
my sis

25. When is your last hug and second last hug?
ystrday.with jane.

26. What does the last text msg in your inbox says?
i cant see,my phone's fucked.

27. How do you feel about your life now?
scared lor,next year o'level leh.

28. Do you hate anyone?
yea.u

29. Last person you called?
jane

30. Who usually sent you the most texts in a month?
jane

31. Is your room messy now?
my definition of messy varies with the norm.

32. Who will be mad if your room is messy?
no one,but i'll be mad if its cleaned.i cant find my stuff like that.

33. Your shortest relationship
only got 1.jane.waiting to break only.

34. Who do you look like?
people say i look like edward cullen.but i think i look like brad pitt leh.

the little dash,is all that matters.

2009-11-12T00:19:00.000-08:00

Tuesday.sungai buloh was okay.satisfied that i managed to keep my shoes in a relatively clean condition.walked alot,tok alot.then saw stuff we dint need to see,and touched stuff we dint want to touch.then by the time we got back to schl,bout 5 plus le.then all the toilets teeming with sweat covered bodies of cadets.excretion sia.then seeing the floor soiled with dirt and grime,ah heck,dint wanna change there,so me n mark go the 2nd floor girls toilet change.ey,no girls wad.then aftr tat go home.slacked awhile then go gym.was bout 7 plus lidat?y'noe i tell u ah,go gym that time,whatever psychological sense of identity you have of yourself really takes a beating.you go in like"imma go in there and beat those fuckers!hahaha!" then by the time you leave,its just"fuckers!waaa!"all i'm saying is tat sometimes it can be really demoralizing to see those mesomorphic,steroid eating freaks.i mean their muscle is like,they have an overdose of testosterone or something.makes you feel small.anw after gym left for home,on the way stopped by the tm basement,cus wanted to buy the chicken the thing.shop closed liao.shit.then go home.

later going out with amos n wee siang.hopefully.i seriously need to go out after the step program la.evryday at home sian eh.knn.then nxt week got the ncc unit camp.FUCK la.i cfm ponning the 1st day.kns they say hair long they cut 4 u. cb u siao ah.pek chek...then the ho lian shi oso going i think.that shiny face woman go,the camp sure sian one.

hmm...recently something got me thinking,what occupation should i take up nxt time.someone suggested journalism.that thought's been stuck in my head awhile now.it might be interesting,journalism.get to travel alot.visit nice places like paris,france,rome, the works.suddenly thats not such a bad prospect.only thing is may need to exercise alittle self control on my impulses to use profanities in the articles i write.the pay might start off alittle measly but as it progresses i'll gain some recognition,then my opinion will actually matter.of course that's in a much much later stage in life.here's alittle philosphy about life to chew on.in life,we exchange our time for money.thats called living.then as we grow older,we exchange our money for time.thats called dying.as sickness and disease kicks in,our body degenerates and we slowly become a part of something.thats something is called history.when we come to pass,whether we are remmebered for something,or forgotten for everthing,thats up to us to decide.ey,thats not bad for crapping something up on the spot.well at least its true.cus when we're dead,on the tombstone,its not the two dates that matters.its that little dash in the middle.that dash represents well,the journey.the dates are merely the starting and the ending.so....well do something to make that little dash matter.WOW i'm touchy today.eh wadever,going out now.stay tuned in case i feel like ranting about more bullshit later.byee~

there's hearts all over the world tonite.

2009-11-09T08:03:00.001-08:00

wah sian,tml got fkcing ncc cip go sungai buloh(dunno how the fuck to spell la)knn.go there go die la

bottle it up

2009-11-06T05:13:00.000-08:00

hello people! i'm damned bored,so if ur reading this,u mus be bored too.okay,lets play a game today.follow these instructions carefully,and only proceed to the next one after u have done the previous.the objective of the game is to follow all the instructions through,and ur wish will come true.ready?hey hoe,lets go!

1.look at your left hand and slowly trace the clearly defined lines on your hand.
2.do the same for your other hand.
3.pause and think of the things u want
4.now think of the things your dont want.
5.now,clear your mind of all your thoughts.
6.close your eyes.
7.now,say out loud the first thing that comes to your mind.
8.clasp your hands together again and think of the person u want most.
9.repeat his/her name.our loud
10.congrats u made it through

okay!if u managed to follow all the instructions carefully to the end,well thats a big lie.in fact,if u followed instructions from 7 onwards u already failed the test.unless u can read with ur eyes closed suckers.hahahahahaha!! that was epic! haizz...now if only i can channel this genius of mine into my studies..

finally the first week of step is over man,sian ah,one week left to go.today okay lah,quite slack.hmm...aftr schl go find mr hafiz for a talk.noneofurbusiness.then go for phy remedial.then after schl go with tan go whitesands and slack.tok alotta cock.oh i stumbled upon some very interesting news.for me to know and you to find out.bought a double choc.my my,mc-cafe double choc is nice.anws,headed home after that.on the way home,then,near my void deck,saw this little girl wearing the halloween horn thingy on her head,the one resembling headphones with horn protruding from the top sides.she was stamping her feet on the ground,throwing her tantrum.her mother was trying to coax her to behaving herself,but it was testing her patience.then the stupid girl dashed off blindly,knocking into me,well,that was her misfortune.i kinda stared at her mother and said,"ey,'scuse me,this your kid?" the mother replied with a rude"so what?" huh...funnily enough,that ticked me off. i dont know what possessed me today,my temper fluctuated.so i walked to the woman and said,"can you control your kid?" (i said that with my arms folded,cus i dint want her to see my name,or my schl.) then the woman said "hello?excuse me?" and i replied with "goodbye,your excused"and i quickly walked pass her before she went into a fit.and before i got into trouble.i remember hearing this somewhere."the worst people living in singapore,are singaporeans"i started to wholeheartedly agree.the only ones who can change that,are they themselves.and if they dont change that,i'll be the one to invoke the change.sorta like a vigilante.instead of batman,mayb i'll be badman,eh thats original.i think batmans lame,his costume looks so uncomfortable,superman much better,just parade around wearing his underwear outside.but thats not the point.the point is,i'mma gonna be a badman,and change people to be good.okay i'm gonna talk about something else now,cus this is getting lame.

well,i think i'm gonna have to start training again soon.my body's starting to fail me.fatigue overwhelms me when i sprint.my arms feel heavy after carrying some stuff.ey,shit.oh yeah,before i forget.people have been telling me that this blog has been too vulgar,with the F's and all.well,to those people well,fuck off?eh,that was a random thought.moving on.hmm....u guys shld seriously watch my poker king.nice show.wahh...i tell you.i dunno where they recruit these hot actresses man.shit.u go watch ah knn,the deal card the woman,sibeii chio sia.where the hell do they find people like that.i have to tell you,her acting sucks,she cant make those tears come out.budden who the fuck cares,we're not watching the show to watch her act.we're watching the show to watch her.

kay i'm gonna end off here,hands tired sia.

p.s:beware of badman,he lurks in the day,hiding amongst innocent and unsuspecting civilians..

your hands are shaking cold..

2009-11-05T05:16:00.000-08:00

its coming to the end of the first week of the step program soon, cant wait for this shit to be over.today god had his bladder full,so he decided to take a piss at about 11.30 well,it rained like hell.then after tat borrow umbrella from chu luan then go mrt station.coincidentally met them there too.then go home,slacked awhile then tan come my house,and played dota while waiting for amos to come.he came.then we go e-hub,and caught the 5.05 movie"poker king".not bad leh.hmm...me and tan split money,pay for amos share of the movie,his bdae treat la.then walked to whitesands me and tan oso split money again buy the 6 piece chicken meal.bit off more than we can chew.we keep kah chiao-ing tan when he eating lo,toking bout phoebe and everything.funny sia.tok until about 9 lidat,then we left.amos thinking of staying over at my place during step program sometime nxt week.see how la.oh here's a conversation with me and my cousin the other day.ahem.

cousin:u think ur brother has a girlfriend?
me:eh?u siao ah?have u seen my brother before?
cousin:yar,but have u seen the girls out there?

lol.and we laughed happily ever after.goodnite peeps!

2009-10-31T20:18:00.002-07:00

Sometimes sadness filled my day...

When you wake up, time is going to fly...

And wondering if she is fine...

Outside her life, you spy...

Seeing her with another guy...

Spending ur time thinking "when she is going to be mine"...

Whenever u cry, the tears soon will dry...

Leaving you and ur emotions behind...

2009-10-31T20:18:00.001-07:00

ah neo buai buai

2009-10-30T09:19:00.000-07:00

a pillar of support shattered,a charismatic leader gone.a bolster for the establishment departed,a passionate visionary lost.faces change and people change.we are the ones to experience the changes.it's like being in the middle of a whirlpool,the eye of the tornado.everything else just whirls past us,while we watch from the center of the maelstrom.as we age both in the experiential and physical sense,we venture further away from the middle,our sanctuary.soon,we bcome a composition of the destructive windstorm.just a whoosh,and we're gone.nothing is indispensable.we wont be remembered in the ages to come.50 years down the road u ask a kid from your generation"hey u remember Joshua?" he replies with a "the fuck is that?". so whats the point?what can i say?we live a litigious age.only people like Albert Einstein will be remembered.people like him who have such an impact in the lives of millions.u ask a guy,"u know einstein?" he replies,"eh?the motherfucker who made the bomb that killed millions?yeah i remember that dipshit."apologies if i'm not making any sense,i never do.sorry folks if i seem quite the pessimist today.its hard to be all joyous about a report book with lines all over.i tell my parents my phy results only they tok alotta cock,so i dint bother telling them the rest.

fri was sian,got ncc aftr schl.then lessons were mundane too.played cards in class.

sat was worse.tio scam 22 bucks going for some spooktecular Halloween shit at sentosa that wasnt scary.go with tan,shan jin,ben,zheng hao,hui yao glenson and some guy i duno.go inside,everyone scream like shit,ran around like shit,and step on my leg like shit.after that,my leg pain like shit.shit la.think i broke a nail.we practically finished the whole thing in 10 mins.22 bucks,for people to step on my legs and scream their lungs out for 10 mins.after that go the mrt there buy thing sit down eat alot.bought the taiwanese sausage.and some thai bee hoon.thai bee hoon not nice.then after that take mrt back to pasir ris.me tan and glenson walked to down town east see the halloween special there.only 17 bucks and it was a fucking lot better then sentosa.then we walked around abit,slacked awhile.then tzr go home,me and glenson go whitesands sit down for a drink.legs all dam pain sia.bought a double chocolate,glen bought sprite.then i see glen finish le,dint want to keep him waiting,so i bought the fries(my sister asked me buy) then we left to go home.i was halfway home when i realised i left my double chocolate at mac.shit.went home anw.bathed slept.

2009-10-29T07:53:00.000-07:00

COLLECTING REPORT BOOKS TML. WAH FUCK. i'm booking a slot in the yio chu kang cemetery hor,u all dont come and take my space i tell u.GL and gdnite people.

given another chance to fail

2009-10-27T03:31:00.000-07:00

failed 6 subs,passed 2.did atrociously for the fye.fucked up chinese which i actually studied for.well,i got promoted tho.life has given me another chance to fuck things up again.it's kinda like how we live to die.how ironic.now facing the prospect of screwing up my O's considering my weak fundamental and conceptual knowledge of all my subjects.now the looming prospect of my o'levels has reached my threshold of equanimity.well put it simply,i'm freaking fucking out.i THINK,i may have to start studying,or i can seriously start finding suppliers for the newspapers i'll be selling in the near future.i'm not quite yet the ungratifying sort.so i'll study hard.thats not to say i wont be playing harder tho.at least i can now heave a sigh of relief knowing that i've been promoted.

today was okay.pretty eventful.got the cip thingy,then got chinese thingy oso.school seemed to breeze pass me today.there was this thing and that thing,then before u know it,amos,ws and tan were at my house playing dota. amos playing dota that time we kah chiao him like siao.damned funny.now sitting by my loneseome self in front of the computer,enjoying the occcasional cool breeze brush against my face,i'm thinking whether the crazy old bitch of a neighbour living 1 floor below me is ever gonna shut up.i wonder whats wrong, maybe she is finding it hard to sleep, or she just noticed that she is still unattached. Must be really stressed huh, so when it reached her threshold of tolerance, screaming like an old witch seems appropriate. " Wa, cb, wei she meh wo dao je yang lao liao hai mei you stead." or " Wa, knn, AH Huat ah, kuai dian lai gan zou na ge kazua(cocroach) lei". poor lady.poor me. gonna bathe now,prolly post another lot of crap later if i feel like it.

2009-10-25T03:55:00.000-07:00

i'll find repose in new ways,though i havent slept in two days

cant think of a tittle

2009-10-13T00:28:00.000-07:00

looking back now,i realize 15 years of my life has gone by rather quickly.tis is a milestone to achieve for some people.hoping that they have done something worth remembrance or something to look back on and think"hey! thats quite an achievement". then reflecting now i realize that "hey! i havent done fuck since i entered this shitty schl" yeah,aside from being sent out of the music room every lesson in sec2,thats not something everyone can do.i used to think that i'd done things worth recognition.but no.i seriously dont think i have.i think i actually cared about stuff like studying,and being worried about poor results.right now,i think somewhere along the way i stopped giving a shit.not just about studies,abt everything.i think its cus no matter how much i try,the effort i put in isnt proportionate to the results i get.oh well.but hey,jus cus i'm not worried about getting bad grades dosent mean that i dont wanna get good grades,so i'll tryy.should try to be more optimistic i guess.how?i have no fucking idea.think of good things,eat green veggies,and drink less coffee,see if that works.off to try studying bio.bye peeps.haveanicelife.